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How have you been? Is life treating you well? I’ve been doing my best to get through the days, trying to heal from all the wounds, but it’s not easy. Now, i look at you, and it feels like you’ve moved on effortlessly, as if the weight of everything we had just slipped away from you. I see you smiling, and I know you’re living life in a way that doesn’t include me, and to be honest, it stings. It’s hard to watch you happy, while I’m still here, tangled in the past, trying to hold on to what we were.

I don’t know how to explain it, but I’m so envy of you. It’s like you found the strength to move on without even trying, and here I am, stuck in the shadows of what we had, hard to let you go. I keep wishing I could find the same peace, the same ability to smile without feeling the weight of missing you. But the truth is, I don’t know how to. You were such a big part of my world, and it’s not easy to just erase the memories, to forget the way we used to laugh, the way we used to talk about everything, like nothing else mattered.

It’s hard for me to accept that we’re no longer part of each other’s lives. I never thought this day would come, the day where I’d have to let go and watch you walk away and happy with someone new. But now, here we are, on different paths, living different lives. And I’m left with this feeling of emptiness.

I wish we met now, I wish you met this me. I know we’ve parted ways, and I understand why. It’s not something I can change, no matter how much I wish I could. But deep down, I still hope that one day, when the time is right, our paths will cross again. Maybe we’ll be different people, maybe we’ll have moved on completely by then. But I’ll always hope, because here I am... I’m still so deeply in love with you and i miss hearing your laugh thru our phone call. It feels like you’re just a stranger to me now, but at the same time, you’re stranger I know everything about. Someone I thought I could never lose.

I’m sorry for everything I’ve been to you, for all the mistakes, for all the things I couldn’t do. I’m sorry for not being the person you needed me to be. But above all, I’m sorry because, even after all this time (almost a year I guess), I still wish you were here. I still wish I could feel you by my side. I guess, in a way, I’ll always be wishing for something that’s already gone. But that doesn’t stop me from hoping that, one day, maybe once more, we'll cross our paths again.